94 days out

I am 94 days out and 72.6 lbs less. Wow. That is so exciting. My weight loss is 45lbs since day of surgery, 52lbs since pre-op diet, and 72.6lbs since September 2011. I am very proud of these stats. I know that I had surgery and that this tool is helping me, but I will never let anyone tell me that I haven't worked hard for it. I work out, I journal my food, I think about what goes in my mouth, I make daily decisions to avoid bad food and bad environments. This is my journey and I am loving the work.

Yesterday I went to see my NUT for a clarification on calories. I have been told to up my calories from a friend. My NUT mentioned that 1200 calories is good for a 3 month pouch. She mentioned this in my group follow-up appointment. I thought OK, far from 1200 cal, but I will try. Then I got overwhelmed with the fact that I am absolutely not able to take in 1200 calories yet. So, since my NUT has open office hours, I decided to go see her yesterday. The summary of that meeting: Eat like you are now, Good job! Don't worry so much about numbers. Focus on my protein, like I have been, and then add in vegies/whole grains. I should take 3 bites of protein and 1 bite of vegie/grain. Working towards my goal of 1/2 plate protein, 1/4 plate vegie and 1/4 plate whole grain.  So that is do-able. I left feeling much better about how I have been trying to make my calorie count.

She did mention that she thought it would be helpful to journal more than just my food. I utilize a free website from the company that made the staples for my surgery. Realizemysuccess.com  It is a great tool and it keeps track of my weight, food, exercise, goals, and measurements. I really like it. But it doesn't really have a place for journaling emotions and struggles.

SO!!! I am going to attempt to do that here.  I was really good at this blog for a while, but let it fall aside. Now I am back and with a vengeance. I am making this weight loss thing work. I will be a success story. Why? because I will do what is proven to work. I will listen to advice of other successful people. I will work HARD. Daily!!!! It's not an option. I put my life on the line for this surgery and I will be successful.

NSV!!!! big one! (nsv- non scale victory)
Last night I went to the park with Amelia (~3) and we played. We have been to this park before and I have wanted to join her more, but was limited. So last night after a 1 1/2 mile walk, we were at the park. I thought, "Should I try the swing? what if I'm still too big? i don't want to discourage myself." So I tried the swing. WHAT AN AWESOME FEELING!! I forgot how much I like swinging. I haven't been able to because my backside/hips were too big and it would pinch me. And it looked awful. I sat down and didn't have that feeling at all. Amazing!!!

So Abbe cooked some chicken and carrots for dinner last night and it tasted way better than when I cook it. Seriously. I think food tastes better when I don't have to cook it. I am a good cook, but ....her's was better. When I got home I was snacky feeling. So I ate some Hot n spicy cheezits and some peanuts. Salt fest!!! Gotta keep those things out of my diet. That upped my calories and carbs for the day, but still got in 92 grams of protein yesterday. I was emotionally hungry and that's why I ate the carbs so late at night. Need to figure that part out.

I have found that I am bored when I get home. I can watch tv, but it doesn't keep my attention. Gotta figure that out too, cause I need time each day to stop and do nothing. I can't run myself ragged like I have in the past. Maybe I can read more. I am reading a memior from a mennonite lady and loving it. I also will start reading "Anne of Green Gables" soon for a book club. Love it!!!