So last night I tried peanut butter for the 4th time. That didn't go so well times 1-3, but time 4 went horrible. I wanted to throw up so badly but there was nothing in my pouch to get rid of by the time the feeling came. I just walked around the house in circles for about 15 minutes.
This morning I tried eating a hard-boiled egg without cutting it up first. Just small bites. Nope. That didn't work and I actually threw up for the first time since surgery. Here's my fear: I used to throw up alot and it comes very easy to me. I hate throwing up, but love how it relieves my pain, physical. Don't get me wrong, I don't throw up just cause. I just have a sensitive stomach/bowel.
Overall, this has been a relatively good journey. 17 days and 24 pounds, total 51 pounds since sept., depending on the scales. I am so proud of myself. I have worked really hard and obeyed all of the rules I've been given. I truly like and respect my nutritionist, nurses and doctor. My NUT is available through email or phone most of the time.
I am going to be on my own again today and am starting work next week. 3 weeks off and I don't really miss it. I do however miss being busy. I start tutoring again tonight, weather permiting.I want to start babysitting again, but am not sure I'm up for adding those hours in yet. I usually sit 4-8hrs a week, but they are late night hours. Good pay and good kids, but I need to get my rest and focus on keeping healthy. So, I'm going to hold off for a little. Going from nothing to everything isn't the smartest yet. So hopefully the sitting will still be there.
My scars look really nice! They are healing well and one is almost gone.
