6 weeks out

ok, so I haven't been so good at this blogging thing. I think about writing out my thoughts but don't always do it. But today as I sit here taking a day off of work because I'm tired and struggling, I think I need to write this out.

I've been doing really well with this surgery. God has been really good to me and have had very few challenges. I'm excercising almost daily and progressed from soft foods pretty easily. Since Sept, when I started working on this "weight thing", I have lost 50 lbs. Hooray. I am wearing jeans that haven't fit for years and they won't fit much longer. Hooray. I am "losing" out of my shirts quickly. This is the fun part. The reward you might say for all this hard work.

I haven't thrown up much. Only if I ate something too fast. But last night was different. I think the food I ate didn't like me. I had some homemade salsa, which was awesome, but don't think it cared for me much. Then today, I ate some brown rice and salmon. I think I ate too much rice, because my chest started hurting after about 20 minutes. I thought it wanted to explode. I ended up throwing up a little bit and it was better. But the "foamies" lingered for a little longer. At least I got the protein from my lunch.

I took today off, cause I was super tired and really frustrated with my fluid intake and myself in general. I haven't failed, or cheated, but this stall stuff is hard. I have lost only 2 lbs in 3 weeks. I know this isn't a quick fix, but my brain is still hoping for a morning when I wake up and this weight is all gone. sooner than later. Don't tell me this isn't mental. Wow.

I've st around most of today. Done a few loads of laundry and went through some paperwork. I set a timer for every 5 minutes and am drinking fine. Really wish I could take another day to do this, but can't. I will slow my life down again. I think I've hurried back into my crazy schedule of doing everything possible, and I need to slow it down again. I don't like the dark circles under my eyes. These went away after the surgery.

I also decided today, that I am changing vitamins. I am going to order from Bariatric Advantage instead of the Flinstones. This will cost more, but I feel I need to do it to prevent malnutrition.

I'm feeling better this afternoon and have a better outlook on this journey.